Belief !

Good Morning !

My Last post dealt with "Mein Kampf", my struggles with my life and how to fight them out.

I should say, I have started fighting them out. It is the situations that taught me life till date and they continue to do the same.

But, I should say, my journey to my defined success is very challenging and I am traversing it all alone.

At the end of the day, it is your interests and thoughts that define your path rather than the predefined formulae which doesn't work for all people alike.

Anyways, I am on the right tread and I am pretty sure that I will overcome these difficulties !!

Cheers,
Kishan.

I'm Falling !

Hey ya!

Good Evening !

A cozy relaxing weekend at my hostels. Nice to start your day at 14.30 Hrs. ;-)

I'm used to be a person who belonged to myself. These days, I am not. I am purely living some other's life, in some other way, for some other's happiness. I didn't opt this or aspired this. It just happened.

People, How do you define success? You know what, I define it as "Being Yourself ! Being responsible to your life !"

I am not. I am falling. I am failing.

At this point, I can remember the famous line by Joker in Dark Knight, " Madness is like gravity, all you need is a push" !

What a line!! Some crazy thought of a serious ideology. The same is my case.

I am leading a life which is quite opposite to what I meant and aspired to. Life is really strange. I never imagined myself at this lowest ebb.

Education makes people knowledgeable with which we can leverage our experience. I am losing on all fronts. I am ruined.

All bad things that are happening to you, because of you and are crushing your shoulders into earth. You know where it is going wrong, where it should be corrected, but cannot change it. Not even a bit of it.

Is this what I wanted from Life? From my management education? From me?

Expectations are deceptive. These hard times make you see the reality.

The only thing that is left with me is the ability to know the truth, to identify it. I still need the courage and strength to fight it.

But,

I do not want to end up like this. I do not know whether my story here at B School has an happy ending or not. But, I am one 100 percent sure of my defined success.

Lets see how it goes and the struggle involved to come out of this and be a Flying Dutchmen!!

Indeed the times are very demanding and the situations are very depressing.

Kishan

Lucky You....vs ....You Alone !

Good Evening,

00:30....Good Evening ??? Am I Mad? Not Yet :-P

Yes, Welcome to IMT.

Friends, As of late, I have been into some serious stuff which needs my complete attention. During this period, many a times I tried to jot down a few thoughts, but got engrossed into a couple of more.

Life is not so easy. It is full of choices. Choice to eat or not to. If yes, eat what?, If this, eat where?, If here, Why? and the list goes on.

When we take a choice, we need to understand the consequences. So, if everything goes well, whom to applaud? If something gets screwed, whom to blame?

Most of you believe in luck, don't you. Now - a - days, the word luck is used extensively. Lucky student, Lucky family, lucky guy and for the records, Lucky captain  :-)

The same applies to the other side of the coin as well. Ill fate/bad luck was with the family, they died in the blast when they visited temple. Bad luck to the girl who got raped by some so called "MARD", even when she was shouting "God ! save me" with all breath available in her lungs.

For your information, God doesn't save them. Its their KARMA. Of course, they say it.

I will restrain my discussion towards luck....God will be allocated with a couple of blogs or may be a separate book.

Now, tell me. Does the above incidents have to do anything with luck? My roomie and myself had a very good discussion on this subject which made me to write this. He was supporting luck. Its ok. I respect his opinions.

Now, let me express my views. Luck? My foot !

Everything depends on your decisions and situations you are in. There is nothing like luck to make you win/loose. Why would nature love bias? AFAIK, Nature loves symmetry !

Now, let us discuss my case with a few weirdest examples.

1. There was a bus accident, say floods @ Uttarakhand, where everyone was killed except some set of people inside temple/ only one person among all who are involved in an accident. Is that Luck? Suppose, if you remove the term luck from that equation, what would you attribute the accident to? Perhaps, the vehicle dynamics? weight division? speed, etc. Then why would you say "Luck" rather than these genuine factors that you know.

2. There is a person attending an interview. Lets say, 2 people. One guy got a very easy panel, one guy got the toughest professor. What would you say? Lucky A? Keeping luck aside, will that won't do anything with his mindset, preparation, attitude, hard work?

The answer to all my questions is simple 2 point solution. Again, this is just my view point.

1. Human mind confuses with situations which are beyond its understanding. Science has proven that, in such cases, it often tries to seek refugee in some belief which is supreme and unquestionable. Ok, Mr.A is lucky. Can anyone answer, why only Mr. A is lucky? Why not B or C. Why only "Nirbhaya", the girl who got raped was unlucky? Why not some other girl, for the instance.

No Answer. You just retaliate as, "He/ she is just lucky. No reason". That proves my first point that, you perceive it as something beyond your understanding. If, in an accident all people die except you, its not your luck or their bad luck. Its that, their body couldn't take such pain and died, but you are more fit to survive further.

2. The second point is more a suggestion/thought. Make life more simple. Perceive the things around you in a simpler fashion. Everything that happens, happens on a cause and effect basis. No Luck. No Bullshit !

If you keep your life more simple, slowly you will develop a sense of responsibility where you will blame less and shoulder more. Then most of the things you enjoy doing rather than worrying about the outcome.

I am working on this thought since 1 year and I am happy. In fact, very happy.

Guys, see you again. This time, probably we shall have a meeting with GOD.....Yes, alive !

Cheers,

22nd March

Amigos, Amigos !

I am back !

The date in title has changed my career.

The day I decided to quit Infosys,
The day I concurred to believe that I can do something else than coding,
The day I started to believe that hard work pays off,
The day I felt "Udi parindey" (Flying pigeon)

Life is full of turns and twists. Everytime.

Some of my closest circle of friends have felt very sad with my decision even though they knew that I am doing for the greater good.
Now, That's true friendship.

Although I was happy that I got admission into MBA college, still I had mixed feelings.

Suddenly, I developed a sense of insecurity. a sense of lifelessness, a sense of gloom overshadowed my thought process. I will be missing people, my room, Hyderabad, my colleagues, my lifestyle, my bike (possibly).

Life is very strange.

One thing we can learn from this, everything is temporary. The question is, "How were you with him/her/it till the time of leaving? Have you got any memories? Yes? Cherish them !

Still I have the same feeling, but Yes, I will get used to it. I am Human too !

No Cheers,

2013 After Doomsday ;-)

Hola Friends !

Happy New Year Guys !

Yes, I am a late in wishing this. But, wanted to pen down my feelings on 1st February.

Why February 1st?

January 2013, was full of turning points in my life and so, wanted to share my experiences at each turning point. Sharing my resolutions or hopes on 1st Jan would be too immature. So, today.

Jan 6th : 17:45 (With my Parents)

Purchased my dream SLR camera, my mom performing the first click (I believe her hand to be lucky when dealing with electronic goods, or rather, let me put it this way. My hand is pretty unlucky one :-)

Although I am into photography with my point and shoot for a while, having a professional DSLR was/is my dream.

I cherished that moment.

Maybe, it is one of my happiest moments.

Jan 9th : 04:20 AM (All alone in my room, without anyone near to share my feelings, still content)

The D Day, CAT results. Say out of fear or just because of the focusing option, I wanted to check my results from the eyes of my "Nayana", err.....my DSLR.

QA 91.42                  VA 96.23                    OA 96.00

I was overwhelmed with joy, called my friends, family and informed them. I know, 96 is not a very great score, but it is the outcome after chasing CAT for 4 years.

This was my first turning point.

Jan 14th 06:00 AM(Alone, set out to an experimental photo-walk)

Really Man, photo walks have something in them. First one with my SLR, I loved it !
New place, new people, new environment, candid images.....I loved interacting with students, old couple, temple priest, small kids, orphan girls, German couple, everyone !

Managed to get some 10+ clicks which are better from a lot of 200+ snaps.

(Will describe it completely in a detailed post)

Jan 17th 17:45

My XAT result came. 97.97 percentile. Of course, thanks to our petitions for a key check, later upgraded to 98.51.

This result is very important as this helped to secure some good opportunities. XLRI calls, SPJIMR etc.

Jan 20th 23:00 - 04:05 AM

My best friend, Krishna came to my place and we had a nice discussion related to life, objectives and obstacles. My feelings for my friend became stronger and my beliefs about myself better.

Jan 31st 18:45

SP Jain shortlists out, I am in :-)
One of the best intis in India, I will do everything to convert this.

Feb 1st 09:47 AM

Phone call with a terrible news, Cannot discuss here.

Overall it was great !

Looking forward for a better, busy, Promising Feb :-)

Cheers,

Forgive, Forgive, Forgive !

Greetings Guys,

Back at the helm again :-)
You know, these days, I am learning much by thinking much. About myself.
Real knowledge, real life, real education.

I am in fight with one of my own opinions.
A person hurts you intentionally. He (It may be "She" either :-P) knows that, you will definitely feel bad.
Time has changed.
Now, you have a chance to pay him in his own coin. Should you?
Of course, you have every reason to.

Hold On.

First, let us first consider what if you teach them a lesson by acting on their terms.

1. You will get emotional satisfaction. Your ego gets satiated.
2. He may learn a lesson on how someone feels when he behaves in the same way.
3. You may lose the relation with that person, unless he takes your act in a positive way and learns a lesson on his own cost.


Here, when I say "may", there is every possible reason that he may not. He may probably even end up waiting for another chance to reply back, with more acetic tone and a guaranteed acerbic action.

 Now, what if you don't pay back and instead, forgive him.

1. You may miss that ego satiating kick.
2. People around you will judge you as a weak person, who cannot avenge even for a small thing.
3. He may repeat the same act somewhere with someone else and hurt them too.
4. You may have that pleasant feeling of forgiving and would not spread hatred.

Now, coming to the discussion, is it that necessary to avenge?
This question rotates in my mind even today.

Being candid, I never forgave any person who have messed up with me.Even a slightest mistake would be rewarded back in his own terms. I was judgmental. The prime reason being, i hated the idea of forgiving a person who does a wrong thing intentionally.
In most cases, i used to retaliate. But since some months/say a year, I have become more moderate and started to feel empathy towards the people who do hurt me either intentionally or the other way.

In a candid discussion with one of my best friends, a line propped up, which goes as, "Forgiving a person, even when you have the chance of taking revenge is the most pleasant thing." 

This changed me.
At first, I didn't accept this line. But, later, when I have started to identify some fragments in my life which needed some better tool than revenge, made me feel the change.

In our lives, as we face many people every day, we see a number of them expressing a plethora of negative reactions. Anger, hatred, speaking ill, mistrust, 'I don't give a damn' attitude and many such negative shades which in many cases will hurt you for sure.Here, I am not talking of people who commit crimes. Don't misjudge me, please. If we try to retaliate, what are we trying to do is, unknowingly filling our life with all such hatred.

We lose our mental balance, we shout at people at slightest mistake, we often misjudge people, we end up scolding and criticizing everything under the sky and slowly tend to become unwanted perfectionists.

This is one aspect, the other worst part is, we dump that negative tone on someone who is weak (again who don't avenge), say our mother (primary target), sister/wife (secondary), brother, father, best friend, so on and so forth.
Imagine a scenario, when your mom/wife avenges you by not taking care of daily chores citing your anger as her reason. Wouldn't that be a sight to watch?

When Parents won't, why should we? Are they not our inspiration? Our first and best role models ?

So, friends, I am conducting this experiment of forgiving others even when the other person is 100% wrong. I WILL NOT be successful in just a day or two. This needs much patience, which I am ready to put in.

Are You?

Cheers,






(My new signature, for my blog and photography. Howzaat ?? )

Mein Kampf

Hello Everyone,

Guten Abend !

If Alive, Hitler would definitely sue me for using his title for my blog.
These days, I am being bugged by one solid question which will shake one's foundations.
What makes one Successful in life?
Not just career, not just relations and not the family either.
In Life. On the whole.

Upon reading a plethora of books on that subject and many other good articles, I came to a conclusion that "If you are capable of implementing whatever you think, without procrastination and hesitation", Success will bow before your might.
Here, when I mean success, I mean happiness. And you will be happy when your want is fulfilled. If you want INDIA to win a match, and if it does, you will be happy. On the other side, if it doesn't, you will feel bad, may be in small doses and for shorter duration. But, this is the ultimate funda in life.

We often end up working/performing less than our full throttle. This becomes the sole reason for our unsatisfied and often unhappy lives.

So, coming to the solution part, I want to COMPLETE, whatever I PLAN to.

This is with respect to every aspect of my life. If I want to indulge myself in 1 hour of photography or want to blog for some time or want to learn a new word in german, I WILL.

I will slowly start implementing this attitude in my life. In all small windows and also for larger tasks. BUT, I WILL.

I will post with my methodologies and results later !

Cheers Guys,
Kishan.

If you have any better thoughts, please do POST.